I have learnt how to live... How to be In the world and Of the world, and not just to stand aside and watch. And I will never, never again run away from life. Or from love, either...

Sabrina... a CLASSIC! Honestly there are so many movies that could be considered my "favorite," because it depends on the genre! But yes, Sabrina (with Breakfast at Tiffany's as a close second), is my favorite movie! I could watch it over and over!! It's absolutely amazing! Thank heavens for the classics... I wish more people would watch them and embrace them! Ha and I wish society was more like this one. Hard working, respectable, modest, fashion worthy, fabulous cars... what more could you want?! And I love the way they spoke. Very refined! Lol... and did I tell you about the clothes?! I LOVE their style in these movies! So great!!

Aruba, Jamaica, Bermuda, Bahama, Key Largo, Montego...

"Kokokomo"- Beach Boys

 

Went to Cabo on my honeymoon :)

Did the rope-line in some city in Mexico... Mazatlan I think...

Hawaii almost every year since I was two! :) MISS MY FAMILY!!

And of course... now I live in Washington :)

 
Here's a pic of me now... (in the CUTE dress!) and here's a pic of me from a year ago (please no comments).

I have changed SO much in the last year. Some for the better... some not for the worse, but still in progress. I finally graduated nursing school!! YAY!! And I am now LIVING in the same city, under the same roof, as my husband. I moved away from everything and everyone I know, to be on my own. Which if anyone knows me, knows that I do not handle change, or alone well. I have to be busy and surrounded with my loved ones. It's been really hard to be on my own. But I've learned how to do laundy (still can't iron), how to pay bills, have a full-time job and career, LIVE with another person that isn't directly related by blood, cook when I can, how to be domestic, and how to be responsible. Thank heavens for amazing parents that taught me so well, even if they think I wasn't watching or listening :) I've grown spiritually, though that is still a HUGE work in progress. I'm still not quite comfortable in my own skin and I'm very self conscious. But my amazing husband is helping me with that :) I'm learning how to handle my problems on my own, however I still call my mom all the time and my best friends to still vent. It's always nice to have outside eyes for advice. I'm learning how to be nicer, more patient, and more motivated. I've currently started working on my BSN online-schooling and I'm not a big fan. It's a lot of work coming home from work, or waking up early to do homework... and still have to attend to my normal household duties. I feel like I'm still angry though, and I don't know why. I'm trying to be more patient but God is giving me many chances to work on it, and though I'm not grateful for them now... I'm hoping I will be able to work through it and be more grateful later! I'm trying to work on being that sweet girl my mom always said I used to be. Lol though my road rage has calmed down and Evan's has escalated. I LOVE working as a nurse, but I'm still always scared a little stressed out from it. It's hard! I'd rather be in school sometimes. I'm learning how to deal with my patients and co-workers and administrative staff but my goodness sometimes it's so hard to turn the other cheek without letting your hand want to help turn theirs! I'm a work in progress let's just say! I'm hoping that in another year I'll look back on this year and be proud of the progress I've made! One step at a time :)

"We spend much of our time and energy working for the food and other resources we need to sustain our physical lives. Jesus’ words remind us that sustaining our spiritual lives also requires work. It is a labor that requires planning, practice, and perseverance. And for each individual, it is the labor of a lifetime. Most great works begin with a plan. With personal effort and prayer, each of us can find ways to nurture our spiritual growth that will fit our own circumstances." -Liahona, Oct. 1994



Which purse?

What's in my purse you ask? Well... which purse? I am a purse freak!! So... the purse I use the most is my nursing bag... which some say is a suitcase. See that brown box? That's for our shoes... and my bag is almost as big!

My front pocket has my chapstick, lip gloss, inhaler, nursing clipboard, and pens...

 

In my back pocket there's an ensign, lotion, lint-roller, and my Maaxolt.

My wallet, tampons, gum, extra pens, dried apricots...

My center pocket has more chapstick and gum, my stethescope, and wisps.

These are the rest of my purses... which you can't really see because there's a whole backside of purses and there's cluthes in some of them. I LOVE purses! And as you can see... I love Juicy purses! And mary poppins style. :)



Something that means a lot to me...

Well besides the family, and husband, which I have NUMEROUS pictures of!!

What do these two pictures have in common? The temple!! The temple means so much to me in my life. It was where I was sealed to my family since birth, and all the many generations behind me, and those that are to come. It's where I am BOUND to Evan for TIME AND ALL ETERNITY. No matter what happens in this worldly life he is mine, forever. This place is very special and sacred to me. Not having 5 temples within 20 minutes of my house has been very difficult for me. I haven't been to the temple since my good friend B-ritt was sealed. I've been thinking a lot about this place as I am coming home next weekend for my friend Angie to be sealed! It's so exciting to see your friends be sealed to their husbands! And you remember a lot more about theirs and what the sealer has to say and the advice he gives you. This is my sanctuary, my peace. I miss going with my mom especially. Her and I went a lot before I moved away, and after I got married. She has taught me so much and how important it is. Then I got to go to the temple with my best friend Stephie!! After she got home from her mission it was the first place we wanted to go. It was AMAZING!! I can't wait to come home and go with my friends and my mama again. I hope I am ALWAYS doing what I need to so that whenever I need to escape this world, I can run here for that spiritual lift I need :)



Here you go Steviee... UPDATED BLOG!

Day 21 – A photo of something that makes you happy.

... This makes me happy!! SUNSHINE!! Oh how I miss the sun... and everything it brings along with it. The warmth, tan skin, happy faces, glitter on windshields, diamonds sparkling, cute summer clothes... the BEACH! :) I LOVE sun!! Here we come florida!!

Day 22 – A letter to someone who has hurt you recently.
... well... since anything you put on the internet stays FOREVER! I'm going to skip this one... everyone hurts someone at some point. But how you HANDLE someone hurting you is a different story. One of my FAVORITE talks that I've ever heard, that makes me cry... is this...

Please watch this video :)

* Embrace this day with an enthusiastic welcome, no matter how it looks. The covenant with God to which you are true enables you to become enlightened by him, and nothing is impossible for you.
* When you are physically sick, tired, or in despair, steer your thoughts away from yourself and direct them, in gratitude and love, toward God.
* In your life there have to be challenges. They will either bring you closer to God and therefore make you stronger, or they can destroy you. But you make the decision of which road you take.
* First and foremost, you are a spirit child of God. If you neglect to feed your spirit, you will reap unhappiness. Don't permit anything to detract you from this awareness.
* You cannot communicate with God unless you have first sacrificed your self-oriented natural man and have brought yourself into the lower levels of meekness, to become acceptable for the Light of Christ.
* Put all frustrations, hurt feelings, and grumblings into the perspective of your eternal hope. Light will flow into your soul.
* Pause to ponder the suffering Christ felt in the Garden of Gethsemane. In the awareness of the depth of gratitude for him, you appreciate every opportunity to show your love for him by diligently serving in his Church.
* God knows that you are not perfect. As you suffer about your imperfections, he will give you comfort and suggestions of where to improve.
* God knows better than you what you need. He always attempts to speak to you. Listen, and follow the uncomfortable suggestions that he makes to us--everything will fall into its place.
* Avoid any fear like your worst enemy, but magnify your fear about the consequences of sin.
* When you cannot love someone, look into that person's eyes long enough to find the hidden rudiments of the child of God in him.
* Never judge anyone. When you accept this, you will be freed. In the case of your own children or subordinates, where you have the responsibility to judge, help them to become their own judges.
* If someone hurts you so much that your feelings seem to choke you, forgive and you will be free again.
* Avoid at all cost any pessimistic, negative, or criticizing thoughts. If you cannot cut them out, they will do you harm. On the road toward salvation, let questions arise but never doubts. If something is wrong, God will give you clarity but never doubts.
* Avoid rush and haste and uncontrolled words. Divine light develops in places of peace and quiet. Be aware of that as you enter places of worship.
* Be not so much concerned about what you do, but do what you do with all your heart, might, and strength. In thoroughness is satisfaction.
* You want to be good and to do good. That is commendable. But the greatest achievement that can be reached in our lives is to be under the complete influence of the Holy Ghost. Then he will teach us what is really good and necessary to do.
* The pain of sacrifice lasts only one moment. It is the fear of the pain of sacrifice that makes you hesitate to do it.
* Be grateful for every opportunity to serve. It helps you more than those you serve.
* And finally, when you are compelled to give up something or when things that are dear to you are withdrawn from you, know that this is your lesson to be learned right now. But know also that, as you are learning this lesson, God wants to give you something better.

Day 23 – 15 facts about you.
1. I am fiesty and have a temper

2. I am emotional and feel things very deeply

3. I hate tomatoes, cooked spinach, cashews, broken heels (shoes), and dirty dogs

4. I want to own a "toothless"

5. I am obsessed with disney movies and B&W oldie films

6. I love cutting toenails and peeling sunburned skin... I'm weird I know

7. I want to be a physician assistant or nurse practitioner on a neurosurg unit for pediatrics

8. I secretly miss my tank-tops and shorts... but I LOVE being part of the "G-crew"

9. I'm scared for the second coming

10. I'm not as tough as I put off and I'm sensitive to words of those close to me

11. I'm currently baby hungry... because Lottie and Bella are SO cute!!

12. I wish I lived in Utah next to family and friends

13. I want to travel the world with my best friends doing humanitarian work as a nurse

14. I wish I could be an interior designer

15. I love being a nurse... but I'm scared I'll mess up and lose my license

Ha ha sorry I suck at updating!! I've been very busy :)

Me and My Blog!

Ha ha so I missed yesterday... which is post ANOTHER picture of yourself! Whoever wrote this list is a little narcissistic! But I thought I'd introduce you to my "West" crew at LHCC! I LOVE them!

Okay... so for the official blog of today. What my blog name means to me... A 40's Romance!
If you don't know already, I am OBSESSED with the 20's-50's! Especially with the WWII era. All the sexy soldiers and the newly introduced nurses. It was a hard time but back then it MEANT something. I love reading old love letters from soldiers to their loved ones. And I'm living the dream! I got my soldier, and have stepped into the world of nursing. I have a box of "Love Letters" and it's something I hope my grandchildren or children will be interested in them one day. I love the communication of pen and paper, instead of texting and emailing. Having to wait for one of Evan's letters was the hardest things to do. And I have never been more excited, flustered or in love with someone as when I was reading his letters. That is what my name means to me!

Something I Crave...

Hhmm... what is the thing I crave the most?! CHOCOLATE DUH!!! (Mom you know what I'm thinking...)
   
Hungry yet?! I could eat chocolate ALL day!! It's good for you because it has protein (it comes from a bean), it has dairy (milk), and most of the time it's either covering fruit (strawberries) more protein (peanuts/cashews/ect), and it makes you smile becaues they come in cute boxes, cute shapes, or you get it on special occasions!! This is why I CRAVE Chocolate!!

Day 16 & 17

My Celebrity Crush(es)!!

I'm sorry... but do I REALLY need to say more?! HELLO celebrity crushes!!

My family...

These people are absolutely incredible!! I don't know where I'd be without them! They are truly amazing people...

These two girls are literally my two best friends and I miss them so much now that I don't have them right next to me. They're doing so many good things in their life! I'm SO proud of them!!

This is my AMAZING sister Kayla... She's above the "V!" She's going to BYU-HAWAII!!!! YAY!! I'm SO SO proud of her!! Kayla... you are such an amazing person. I'm so proud of all you've done in your life and how hard you've worked. You are my example of what a courageous and determined athlete/student/human-being is. You are so funny with your many stories. I wish you'd listen to me and be a writer on the side... just for me! I'm so happy with the decisions you've made in your life and how you've learned from my mistakes and having turned into an EXTREME spiritual, graceful (at times a Gretel), worthy daughter of God. I cannot wait to see you in those Hawaiian colors girl! You're going to be amazing! Remember I am ALWAYS here for you and will be cheering you on from Florida (until we hopefully get to Hawaii) for your games. And even though I probably won't be getting kicked out of too many games in your college career... I'm still rooting for you, and not the umps. I love you Ninja. Thanks for your example to me in my life. I'll miss you so much as you go off to college. Don't forget to call mama please. She's going to need a LOT of phone calls! Remember who you are and DO GOOD THINGS!! ;) remember the "RAPE" song too please. You know how those island boys can be! xoxo

This is Shalana! She's a sophomore in highschool and living the life! Loving her friends, not doing her homework, and thinking she's 21 ;) But this little girl is a little "mini-me." I love her so much!! She is JUST like me! Feisty, loves boys, and LOVES shoes! But she is so sweet and tender-hearted. She is always doing things for our family and being our "runner." Shalana... do NOT forget who you are, and do not be ashamed of it! I LOVE YOU! And so does your family... and see this picture? You have him to protect you! Don't forget to be HAPPY!! Cherish the moments you have with the parentals and Kayla because when you go onto college and move away you'll miss them. I know highschool is hard, boys are dumb, and girls are mean. But BE YOU! You are so sweet and I'm so proud of you woman. Please call me when you need to talk! You know I'm always here for you, but I'll always give you an honest answer. Remember when you graduate highschool no one will remember the prom queen, head cheerleader, of the captain of the football team. Choose good friends and hold them close! Be the friend you want to have, and love the NICE BOYS!! :) I love you little sister. Be brave you are going to make it! xoxo

Oh where do I start with these two... I MISS YOU!! Mama you have taught me so much and I very much appreciate the care packages. I wouldn't survive out here without you. I'm sorry I didn't pay attention when you were cooking, ironing, sewing, and being an AMAZING mom! I miss your hugs and your smile every day. I miss seeing you every day and complaining to you about all the stuff going on in my life and listening to your advice. Thank you for your example in the gospel. You are truly an inspiration. You are a very strong woman, and kind, and faithful. You're an example of how to be a mother and a wife. Mom... Read these lines very closely... YOU DID AN AMAZING JOB AT BEING A MOM!! You are my hero! :) I LOVE YOU!

Daddy... oh how I miss you. Thank you for teaching me how to work hard and to do things for others when they don't deserve it or you don't really want to. You are so strong and so generous and a truly amazing human being. Thank you for always being there and being the mediator. I'm a daddy's girl and I wish I had taken advantage of the times you were home more. Thank you for always going to Kayla's games, and taking mom out every weekend, and always letting me pop up at work, and thank you for saying "yes" to Evan. Because of your example I know how to live life and I found the man that reminds me most of you. I miss you daddy!! I wish I could see you more. I appreciate all the time you took off of work to come visit me and go on vacations and giving us a childhood most would kill for. I'm sorry I wasn't more appreciative when I was younger or listened to you. I wish I could take it back. Try to relax now! :) I love you daddy. xoxo

THESE are my NEW brothers and sister! I LOVE THEM!! They are so entertaining and they're always there for me. Kyli for my hair, Matt for a good laugh (shy but super funny!), and Bengt for all the church questions. He's my little missionary still! I miss them every day. I can't wait to see them again!

And these are all my new in-laws!!! They are awesome and I'm so glad they accepted me into their family. They are awesome people!

Lol yes... welcome to the Lock family!!

Ha ha... oh my sweet husband. HE is my family now and how lucky I am! He is an amazing man and I'm super thankful to be his wife for time and all eternity. Evan you are my best friend and I love you so much! Thank you for trying your best around the house, and with cooking, and attempting the laundry! I appreciate your efforts. Thank you for loving me the way that you do, apologizing first to end a fight (even when you know I'm wrong), and especially for making me laugh every day! I'm so grateful to have you in my life and I hope I can be a good wife to you as you are a husband to me. You're going to be a great dad to our kids (when the time comes). Thank you for letting me vent about work, and problems, and having my mood swings that you deal so well with. Thank you for making me stronger and to be more positive. Thank you for letting me cry and ramble on about topics I know you find stupid but give me the look that you're listening intently anyway. I love that you're strong, can tell me "no", are good with money and are serving our country. Thank you for pushing me in school, even though sometimes it means less cuddle time. Thank you for letting me work the evening shift which makes you have to cook more. Thank you for taking out my 6 lb "girlie" dog even though you thinks it brings down your masculinity point average. I LOVE YOU VERY MUCH!! And I can't wait to see where our life takes us... like to Hawaii ;) xoxo



Things I Don't Leave the House Without

These 5 items are all very detrimental to my health if I leave without them! My phone is my lifeline, it's like another appendage. My keys... well self-explanatory. My NIVEA chapstick is moisture heaven in a stick for my lips! My watch... well I'm a nurse and we're not allowed to have our phones as watches. Weird concept I know! Especially because all our watches in our facility are wrong at the nurses station. And my ring... well without it I feel naked! Even if I'm just around the house I wear it consantly. :) I LOVE IT!! Oh yes... and my contacts, but they're in my eyes right now so I can actually type what you are reading now. This is what I leave the house with every day, even on my days off! Very very important products.

"I met a girl. We talked. It was epic. Then the sun came up and reality set in. Well this is reality. Right here."

Thanks Heavens for day 14!! :) A TV Show I'm currently obsessed with!!

Pictures are worth a THOUSAND words :) So I'm currently obsessed with Vampire Diaries! AAHH!! So good... and not cheesy like Twilight, though I do love that too. Anyways, all the main characters are smoking hot! And it actually has a good story line! Cheesy I know but what can you do?

And I'm also obsessed with this show!!

Who doesn't love this show?! SEXY Morgan and Dr. Reid? For some strange reason, I am obsessed with serial killers. I'm not the only one, my good friend Angela DeLange (soon to be Frazier) is also obsessed with him. We bonded ;) anyways... they're funny, addictive and some are real life stories! Very cool! And the characters interactions are the best. Examples:

PLEASE if you don't watch any of the videos watch the video directly above this line. SO funny! Reid's funny side, and morgan's smile :)